Pro-motion

Ever since, I wanted to become an administrator  and dreamed of being one, up to this moment.I enroled in a doctoral degree after finishing my masters degree, aiming to be an administrator. I am glad that my present principal is so supportive of me, that she gave me the position being the teacher-in-charge of the school (TIC) so I can use it when open ranking will be held because it is one of the criteria in related experience. 

Last June, of current school year, my principal diagnosed of having two "mayoma" in her ovary and at the same time she is pregnant. It is very critical for her age because she is already in her passed 40 of her life so she need to take a rest, and so i have to take charge of the school from June until she gave birth.

Before mid July, a memorandum came out that there will be an open ranking for the position of   head teacher. I am glad another opportunity came along. I prepared my papers and my principal also informed me about the said open position. I submitted my papers at the division office the day before its deadline of submission.

The problem is, my principal is on leave, I am the teacher in charge of the school, I don't know what should I feel whenever I am asking permission to each colleagues of mine to please pray for me to have the said position because they always told me, "Sige ipag-pray namen na hindi ka ma-rank 1 kasi kailangan ka pa namin, sabay smile.(hehehehe)" And then to my student journalists, nagpaalam rin ako sa kanila at humingi ng tulong eto naman sila"anla sino na po ang hahawak sa amin?" I told them marame akong kapalit sina Mam Cleo, Mam Julie, Mam Jona at Mam Eunice. See, dati ako lang ang humahawak sa inyo, ngayon apat sila, sabay sabi "ala."

While doing report to be submitted day after tomorrow, a dear friend of mine whispered, "hoy, kapatid, panalangin ni Mam Wena (our principal), sana hindi ka raw miuna mapaalis sa school kasi ang nagagawa mo ay hindi magagawa nun isa."(sabay tawa).

Haist, I don't what must I feel. I am very thankful to those people who always let me feel that I am important to them and that I am of great help, now anyway whatever happened to the open ranking that was re-sched, it's God's will. What ever it  will be I will accept it wholeheartedly.

How Lucky I Am

My mother ( I just called her “mother” but she’s not my mother actually) texted me yesterday,late afternoon to call her through phone. So I went to the principal's office and dialed the numbers and looked for her. Luckily she’s besides the telephone waiting for my call.

She told me to prepare papers because there will be an opening position.(For whatever it is, let me live it behind). So I let a few people knew the decision I will make, in days to come. I texted few people to know that I will try my luck again, not once not twice but it will be my third time. That was late in the evening.

One dear friend of mine texted me, "Yup.You will". Another one told me, “Sir, don’t go.We will make petitions so you won’t leave us.” Another one said ”Pipigilan ka namin, then chuckled.” I felt flattered.  Until, early this morning I cried for the text message I received, and it stated like this:

“Nung umalis si ________________( our friend who transferred to other division) sa school,napakasakit nun para sa akin,naka move on ako kasi nanjan ka pa.Pero kapag ikaw ang umalis.Naku,panu na ako?Panu na kaya ang school,Kme,pag wala ka?”

This message really made me cry early this morning. I felt so blessed that I have friends like them who treated me that important. I won’t forget this day.

Memories

Time passed by, but the memories of those didn't fade; it kept our tomorrows soar high, soar more and broaden our horizon.

Time ended the moment when yesterday had gone but it kept on ticking like a clock, and continued to move on,  for tomorrows never stopped, it kept on coming. Doing things for such special person is an experienced you wanted to do always just to make that person feels the importance, the chance that even for a single moment, you will do everything for that someone dear to me. It happened yesterday but those experiences will always be like water watering the plants, it makes them grow.

Not once, not twice, not thrice, but even for so many times I will keep on doing what makes you happy  for you to feel that as someone giving importance to you, I will do it again and again because you mean so much to me.

Memories of yesterday kept rushing back to me. When I am lying on my bed, it’s my prayer and my hope that when tomorrow comes, you will be right by my side and together we will be dreaming of  what might be impossible to happen, again. Although, I know it will be very impossible, I won’t stop, I keep on dreaming, I keep on praying that one day, you and I will be together again, after those special moments, just you and I had.

It’s hard to find the answer, it’s hard to look for the better ideas and words to express but what I know is that acceptance is the best way for us to broaden our horizon. Whatever happens, chances of gaining more experiences on whatever tomorrow may bring  is based on how we perceive the feelings of what that person is showing unto us. We can’t deny the fact that no matter how we show our compassion to one another we should always be ready for whatever circumstances that might happen.

I would like you to know, that I am very thankful to you. I am not expecting anything, but rest assured I will be there for you. I will do everything for you, just for you to feel that even for a ” once in a lifetime” experience, those memories will be worth reminiscing.

Let me be the one to utter this, “you mean so much to me”.    

At Ease

I am happy to note that you're ok because I received a message from you, just hours ago. You told me you waited for me. I owe you an apology I didn't come. I thought you were too busy today that’s why you never seen my messages even my calls. So I decided not to go.

Until, late tonight you sent me a message. Though, I really worried a lot because since yesterday I haven’t received any replied from you. I sent messages to you, but I waited for too long nothing was received by me. I don’t know where you were or what had happened to you since you told me you’re not feeling well. Though, you told  me now you are a bit fine, I am hoping that you will feel better tomorrow. Don’t worry; knowing you are a bit fine now will help me ease worrying regarding your condition.

I will be seeing you tomorrow, though it will be a surprised I know you will be happy to see me too, hahaha.  I am really glad to note you sent me messages tonight. Thank you. I never thought you waited for me, sorry then.