I am Missing You at All

Today, I just tried not to miss you that much. I have tried not to ask you for whatever you are doing. It seemed to me that tho, I conquered not to ask you, but deep inside me, I longed for you. I don't know why. You always told me that I am your ever dearest colleague. But I told you how much I really love you more than a friend. I am not hypocrite of telling the honest mistake, if it is considered a mistake, atleast I am true to myself.

So happy, when I opened my messenger, you have the message. I knew it, that whenever you are busy, I must understand that you are doing things more important. Because I know, if ever you are not busy, you talk to me. You conversate with me. Thats matter to me.

I can't deny that if you only seen the message I have for you, I felt so sad and sorry because you just ignored it. But, as what I have seen on my fb friend's wall, its better to be seen, atleast, napanseen.

And I think, its right. So I am waiting for your arrival tonight. #vencigold

I did it Again

#anobaito #historyrepeatsagain

The same date, I am talking with the same person. I felt asleep talking with the same person feeling the same. My goodness.

How can I forget you, where in fact I really love you so.

I did something unusual that last time we met and still it lingers on you. I don't know why I did it but you let it happened. I hope that, on that very moment you tell me to stop, I will stop, then.

Next time, if you don't want me to do it, then inform me. Don' t just tell me after doing it. You knew me, I am just a human being, inlove and so most often than not, I am only thinking below what is being felt of whats inside my head down there than my head up there. #vencigold

Reminiscing

I still remember, sometimes ago, we were not able to see each other because of me.

You told me if we could met that moment. I woke up happily because the first message I saw on my cellphone was yours. It was a happy moment indeed, that for sometimes I saw message from you my dear. I replied quickly that " okay, I will see you."

I took a bath immediately, wore my best fitted clothes because I will see you, my love, my ever dearest one. I left home early as possible, so I won't be late, since you hated being late. I texted you that I am on my way going to our meeting place. But, sadly, no reply came out. Again, it's been a long travel going to that place and so, to cut it short, I arrived early. I sent messages almost four messages, but at last after those messages you replied that you are still having your lunch and so I said, "okay."

To keep me busy waiting for you, I decided to have a whole body massage. Since, you are not coming yet, while waiting, I will pamper myself. Around after thirty minutes inside the spa, you texted that you are on your way. I replied okay. Around twenty minutes later, you are asking where am I, so I told you that I am inside the spa, please wait, I am heading to you.

After that message, you replied that you are in a hurry, lets just meet next time. So disappointed that I was just about to go down to your place, you immediately leave without even seeing me, it made me feel sad and lonely.

I went home so lonely, felt so disappointed that the moment I excitedly wanted to see you, you easily walked away. How excited I was to see you, to hug you, and hold your arms but we didn't see each other.

But, I know there is a reason behind why we do not meet. You know, I love you so much that is why I felt so lonely going back home. Anyway, just reminscing. Those were the days. I just want you to know that I still love you.

Bagong Umaga

Isang pagbabago kasama ng makabong pagdating ng "Pasko ng Pagkabuhay" ay ang pagsibol ng ating bagong pag-asa.

Bagong pag-asa na aking nasisilayan sa araw ng ating bagong sinag ng umaga. Isang pagbabagong nagbibigay ng ligaya sa aking bagong pagtanngap ng bagong biyaya ng Panginoon.

Maraming salamat sa bagong pag-asa.

Love Moves in His Own Way

You just want to consider me as one among your friends, you just wanted to be my friend...but I refused to be one. Yes, I have lots of friends and I don't want to include you among them because, you are such a special person for me. 

I left the school which gave fame to me. This school was the school where I fulfilled my ambition of becoming a teacher, of becoming a successful teacher, trainer and coach. Yes, in this school, I won so many competitions serving as a coach or a trainer. In this school, I became one among the most outstanding school paper advisers in the region, as finalists. This school gave me so much, that another blessings is finding you, finding the one whom I want to spend my lifetime with. 

I started seeing you just an ordinary girl, having a long straight, black hair. Having a long and curly eyebrows and a fair complexion. You were once an ordinary gul for me then. Until, one morning, I was awaken by a sudden impulse, a sudden heart beats that’s so fast. I asked myself why?

Then, I found myself searching for your number, craving to text you every moment, and wanting to be with you each time. From that time onwards, I was amazed by not only your beauty outside but most importantly, your beauty from within. Yes for a times, I got upset by your immaturity but it was manageable I do understand those because we almost had a decade of age gap but you managed to love me the way I did. Its been a year now since you accepted me as your special someone despite of detractions coming from the people who are against me.

Against me because of my sexual preference. Yes, they don't like me because of how I act and how they knew me, but against all odds, you love me and gave your trust wholeheartedly. Thank you for loving me. I can't promise you a bed of roses, but I will love you the way I want it to happen and I will trust you all my life. Love you until eternity.  

Since Then

It’s been quite sometimes, since we parted ways.

It’s been so long but we survived. Yes, we almost had each other occasionally, just to find quality time for each other.

 
Another season, another event without having each other. Again, its December time. I still remembered during this month, we were both looking forward of seeing each other. We planned nothing, but time just gave us a wonderful opportunity to spend a happy moment. You and I just running after the time just to be with each other.

Time passed by so fast, but the moment we were waiting for was just part of yesterday. A moment to be remembered and season to be thankful for because we can say that, sometimes that year, the year that was, we had a great moment.

Life's Challenges

About the life's experiences? I must say, I taste the sweetness and bitterness of it.

We were just an ordinary children raised by an ordinary family. Living not in a comfortable life. We were just house in a nipa hut then, with a kerosene lamp as a source of light when the night comes and a door made of bamboo, but we were happy since then. We don't have sumptuous food during meal time. Rice plus a combination of a brewed coffee and dried fish, those made us happy.

We are four and my father is a farmer while my mother stays at home who nurses us and do the household chores. All of my siblings graduated high school while my brother and I graduated as a licensed professional teacher.

Why I experienced sweetness and bitterness of life? We, my siblings and I experienced going to school with only minimal amount of money as our allowances then. We just walked going in and out of the school from home, almost 5 km approximately. During rainy season, we usually got soaked and sometimes our books and notebooks were torn due to heavy rains. But, during recognition day, we were one among the best pupils. Until secondary school, the same situation. We used to walk going in and out of the school from home for more than 5 km approximately. During those days, I wasn't able to join field trips and other tours organized in our school because we don't have enough money to afford the fees. I only have two pairs of uniforms to be worn from Mondays thru Fridays.

In order for us to join the field demonstrations, my parents need to borrow some amount of money to my uncle. It will be paid after harvest time.

 

I can't afford seeing myself working in a rice field, plowing tilted lands. I can't do those jobs since my body built is weak then. Upon finishing high school, I worked hard as a student assistant in a school where I enrolled college up to the time I graduated. I worked hard through the help of my colleagues and professors. Until I got hired as a teacher. After seven years of teaching in the public school, I got promoted as a school head. As of today, I am reaping the fruit of my hardwork. Thank you Lord.

Kasalanan, Kapatawaran, Kapanatagan

Kasalanan, kapatawaran at kapanatagan....

Nilalang ang tao upang syang mangalaga sa nilikha ng nasa kaitaasan, subalit natukso tayo kung kaya't ang paraisong ipinangako ng Diyos ay nagkaroon ng paghihirap, kaguluhan. Subalit ipinangako Niya na bukas ang tahanan Niya sa sinumang nais humingi ng kapatawaran upang magkaroon ng kapanatagan. 

Tila kaakibat na ng tao ang magkasala, madarang sa tawag ng mundo. Tila hindi lamang iisang beses tayo nakakagawa ng kasalanan. Ang makiapid sa di asawa, ang makipagtalik sa di pa asawa gayundin ang makipagrelasyon sa kapwa lalake o babae. Mga gawaing laganap sa daigdig. May mga bansang tuwid na itinutiring ang makapag asawa ng kapwa sekso, ang makipaghiwalay sa pamamagitan ng deborsyo. Ayon sa isang pag-aaral na aking nabasa, dalawa na lamang sa buong mundo ang hindi tinatanggap ang deborsyo bilang legal na paghihiwalay upang makapangasawa muli, ang Pilipinas at Vatican. Mga bansang katoliko ang pangunahing relihiyon. 

Ang makipag relasyon sa kapwa lalake o babae ay isang itinuturing na kasalanan, subalit bakit marami ang nadadarang sa ganitong gawain. Wika nga sa isang pilosopong kasabihan, talagang malimit "masarap gawin ang bawal." Nandun ang thrill, nandun ang saya, nandun ang ligaya subalit, nagsasaya ang kaluluwa sa makamundong gawain. Lumuluha man ang langit sa ganitong gawain subalit tila kakambal ng pag unlad ang pagkasira kung minsan ng moralidad ng sangkatauhan. 

Laganap ang cybersex, yung sa tulong ng internet maari nang makipagtalik ang sinuman gamit ang kamera ng kompyuter at internet. Laganap na rin ang iba't ibang pamamaraan ng pagbibili ng laman. Nakalulungkot isipin subalit ang mga ito rin ang sanhi ng di nalulunasang sakit sa buong mundo na mula na rin sa unggoy, ayon sa isang pagsusuri, ang AIDS o acquired imuno deficiency syndrome.Sa ilang lugar sa Pilipinas dahil sa talamak na bentahan ng laman, madali na rin itong nakukuha sa pamamagitan ng di ligtas na pakikipagtalik. 

Nasaan ang wastong edukasyon na mula pre elem hanggang kolehiyo ay itinuturo ng isang guro. Subalit nakalulungkot mang isipin, may mga pagkakataong mismong guro rin ay sangkot sa di magandang gawain katulad ng sexual harassment. Ang kakaunting kaligayahang nakukuha sa pang aabuso ng kabataan ay nagiging kapalit ang panghabambuhay na pagdurusa. Ang mga sinasabi nating mga taong simbahan ay ganundin. Hindi lahat subalit mga kasong iilan na di pa lubusang nabibigyang kalutasan malamang ay dahil sa kakulangan ng ebidensya o sa katakutan na rin. Subalit, pawang nagdadala ang bawat isa sa buklod ng kasalanan. 

Lahat ng tao ay nagkakasala. Mismong ilang mga sinsamba nating mga santo ay hindi naman talaga santo agad ang kanilang pamumuhay. May magnanakaw, may nabulid sa apoy ng kasalanan subalit binigyan ng Panginoon ng pangalawang pagkakataon upang maipangalat ang totoong salita ng Diyos. Pinatutunayan lamang ng lahat ng ito na anuman ang ating nagawang kasalanan, may kapatawaran sa taong taimtim ang pagdurusa sa nagawang kamalian sa buhay.

Wika nga, "hindi pa huli ang lahat." Nasa huli talaga ang pagsisi, kailangan lamang talaga na magsisi o pagsisihan ang nagawang kasalanan at matuto sa nagawa. Hindi natutulog ang nasa itaas. Sabi nga 24/7 Siyang nakatungo sa atin . Naghihintay sa ating pagbabalik loob. Naghihintay sa alibughang anak. Sa paghingi ng kapatwaran nandun ang kapanatagan naghihintay ang buhay na walang hanggan.

Pagmumuni muni

Matagal nang panahon ang nakalipas, ilang taon na rin ang nagdaan....

Sa mga oras na aking ginugol sa oras para sa aking mga kaibigan , ang mga bagay nating nagawa, ginawa ay masasabing malaking bahagi ng ating nakaraan na nagbibigay saatin ng kasiyahan sa tuwing tayo ay nagbibigay ng pagbabalik alaala sa ating nakaraan.

Saan nga ba patutungo kung ang ating nakaraan malaki lang bahagi ng ating pinagdaanan? Marahil isang bagay ang aking masasabi, isang masayang alaala na masarap balik balikan at isang aral na magbibigay sa aking hinaharap ng isang magandang sanaysay ng aking buhay.

Belt

Garrison belt... I was looking for something my brother requested me to because my niece will be using it. At first, i could hardly find it until i saw this belt.

I still remembered, you came from a long journey. This was one among your pasalubong for me. Both of us have it. We wore it the day we decided to go somewhere wearing our Scouting uniform. We both love Scouting, that's why, each time you wanted to unwind, you visited me and we went anywhere else.

Until, one night we had a misunderstanding. I explained everything, I don't know if you did mind my explanation but we parted ways. You left me with no reasons. My dear friend, I do hope, someday, we'll cross our ways and be whoever we are since the day we met because of Scouting.

Kahilingan

Sa isang sulok ng pag iisa, tanging ninanais sinta
Ang makasama ka at maging iisa ang oras na hinahati sinta

Dati rati

Kay sarap balikan

Masayang ala ala natin

Kay inam titigan

Masayang araw natin

Kung sa pag ibig natin

Ikaw ang iisipin

Masayang sandali natin

Pang habambuhay mandin

Kay gandang larawan

Sa likas na linang

May pitak sa puso

May kirot sa akin

Kasalanan mang isipin

Nakaraan natin

Kung magkagayon man

Ipagpatawad pa rin

Tanging panalangin

Giliw akoy dinggin

Iisang mithii 

Muli ikaw maging akin

Sa pag uusigpa rin

Di na rin maisapuso giliw

Tanging pag asa nga

Bukas ligaya walang maliw

Naghihintay

Sa madilim na sulok

Ikaw nga ay nalulugmok

Ilaw di maaninag

Bukas akala moy basag

Isang tao tayo

Sa masalimuot na daigdig

Maraming pagkakasala

Mabuti ay napapasama

Sa di kalayuan

Ilaw ay nakaamba

Dala nitoy pag asa

Pang alis sa pangamba

Panalangin nga sa yo

Ilaw ay mapasaiyo

Pag ibig na ipinagkait

Ibibigay nitong nasa langit

Kung magkasala

Panginoon handang magpatawad

Sa anak na alibugha

Sa anak na nagpapatirapa

Unahing isipin

Diyos ay laging gising

Anuman ang naisin

Sa tamang panahon mapapasaatin

Kung malyo pa ang umaga

Huwag manghihina talaga

Sapagkat paghihirap

May kapalit sa hinaharap

Masalimuot na daigdig

Dala ay pag asa sa atin

Sa bawat paglubog nitong araw

Dala ay bagong bukas sa atin

Pagbabalik mo o hirang

Sya koong inaabang abangan

Pagpapatawad mo sa akin

Sya kong dala dalangin.

You and I

Never will i imagine

That time will come

We will end up this way

Separate each others way

Happinesss,lonesomeness

We beat them all

We had it all

We were together as one

We were walking indifferently right now

We were talking in other way since the day

You decided to leave me

No one will ever change me

Nobody will ever tell me

How happy when i was yours

How happy when were together

It doeant matter how long will i have waited

It doesnt matter how hurt i have felt

Just to prove i am here

Right here waiting for you

I have made mistakes

We all did mistakes

But what mattera most is that

I acknowledge forgiveness

We acknowledge them all

Sakit, Galit at Poot...

Nasaktan, nasasaktan

Galit,poot

Saan ka nagmumula

Saan hinuhugot?

Nakilala kita

Minahal bang kaibigan

Itinuring na kapatid

Itinuring na kapamilya

Bahagi na ang buhay mo

Sa pakikibaka nito

Sa pagpapasalamat

Kasama ka talaga rito

Naging bukas tayo

Sa pagiging tao

Naging malapit tayo

Oo, kaibigan ako.

Isang araw nagising

Nagagalit ang mundo sakin

Saan nagmumula?

Saan hinuhugot?

Inakalang pagiging bukas

Matalinong pagtanggap

Galit na namuo

Pagpapatawad isinasamo

Nais magbalik

Nais masambit

Kaibigan, kaibigan

Alam mo di ka iiwan

Sana sa dako roon

Magkatagpo ang landas

Masambit na totoo

Kaibigan ko, nandirito ako

Nandito Lang Ako

Nanahimik akong anuman ang isipin mo ay tinatanggap ko. Subalit anuman ang mangyari mananatili ka dito sa puso at isipan ko. Mahalagang tanggapin na ang bawat isa sa atin ay may kani-kaniyang naisin, hangarin, desisyon at pinag-iisipan subalit ikaw man ay aking iniisip rin.

Sa sandaling nalisan ang bahagi ng kahapon, ikaw ay hindi naalis sa bahagi at banda roon. Ang aking kaagapay sa aking pamamahinga, kaagapay sa aking pag-iisa at kaagapay sa aking pakikibaka sa pagsubok ng buhay twina. Lakas loob ko itong tinatanggap dahil kahit malayo ka nandito ang iyong presensya.


Marahil anaki ang ang aking pagsubok, di ko na alintana dahil sa iyong pagsinta. Anuman ang naisin pag-ibig pa rin ang tanging magdidikta ng isang masayang bukas twina talaga.

Pagkikita

Tahimik na sandali

Ang gumising sa akin

Magkikita tayo

Sambit ng puso natin.

Agad sumang ayon

Agad naligayahan

Pagkakakatao'y sumidhi

Pagnanais sumagitsit.

Akalain kong oras 

Makakapagpagising sa akin

Matama ko mang isipin

Isipan ko'y basa mo rin.

Walang pagsidlan giliw

Kaligayahang natanto

Ikaw ang nais ko

Habambuhay walang maliw.

Nais kong ipaabot sa yo

Pagmamahal na natatago

Nais kong malaman mo

Lahat gagawin para sa yo.

ATC Moment kape...

ATC Moment kape...

Masarap magkape...

Nagtimpla ng kape si baby looove Eton-glen Pesebre, sa mga ka Tikling Patrol habang abala sa mga gawain,nilagyan nya ng tig iisang kutsarang asukal ang 7 tasang kape.
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Matapos madagdagan...
Comment ni Den Mar...
Den Mar: Wow, ano ito arnibal na? ( hahahaha)
Naalala ko lang habang break time.

Ikaw Lamang

Ilang araw na lumipas

Ilang gabing tahimik

Matinding pag-iisa

Matinding pakikibaka.

Masayang alalahanin

Araw at gabing kasama ka

Subalit sa oras na mag iisa

Tanging hilingnkayakap ka.

Hindi ko man sabihin

Hindi ko man maiparamdam

Kung di mo nararamdaman

Ikaw ay mahal kailanman.

Sa bawat yakap at halik

Sa bawat oras na kaniig

Pagmamahal ko kapantay

Pawis na ibinibigay sa yo giliw.

Pagtatago

Sabihin mang kaibhan pa

Ang mahalin ka aking sinta

Hindi man maipagmalaki

Mahal kita, dama o ba?