Matchbox

Matchbox. Oo masaya kung mayroon ka nung bata pa.

I still remembered during my younger years. I used to look at other children playing kotse kotsehan and other remote controlled one. I just look at them and happy to see those kind of matchboxes because I for one dont own any.

As a child I wanted to have one. I wanted to experience playing those but our money is not enough to buy some. It would have been better if we will buy kilos of rice and fish for our meals. Its not practical for us. My parents are working to suffice our studies and our daily needs, the school fees such as pta, boy scout, etc, allowance,daily, our meals and others.

Now that I am old enough, I had fun watching vendors along the street of the city having matchboxes and others. Just for fun I just wanted to fulfill the dream I wanted to have during my early years, so I bought two sets of matchboxes, and they made me happy. Now that I earned a living I could buy them without mother uttering "hindi tayo pwedeng bumili ng laruan, kulang ang pera naten o kung minsan wala tayo pera," which I understood. Ofcourse, I would be hipocrite if I will say I didnt tantrum during that time, I did. Hehehe.

Happy to look back to the year that was.

Grateful

Grateful for the love received each day. Thank you for your time. Thanks for giving me a chance to show how much you are being loved. Thank you for making me happy even for a times i am just the one being happy (naughty hehehe) . But seriously, i want to thank you. No words could ever describe how happy i am knowing a lovely pretty one that i ever have. Praying and wishing that we could spend the rest of our lives together and making momentous memories as we celebrate the fruitful years of being together. I love you.

How would I?

How would I be happy, if the person who made me smile is the same person who made me cry?

You Came Along Again

Since the day that you left…, from that day, I   dreamed and hoped that another day, you and I will meet again wherever we are, visit the place where we used to be and take extra time reminiscing memories of the past.

Amazement comes to me when I received a message from you that you want to see me, you want to talk to me, you want to spend some time with me and you want to have some precious moment with me. At first, I was hesitant to go because its been so long we haven’t seen each other. Though, we had conversations through cell phone, chat through facebook, still I don’t know what to do right at that moment. But, I must have enough guts. I want to see you and I want to spend momentous time with you.  I must admit, both of us felt the same feelings, the wants of seeing each other again. You   even  called me to confirm if I will be coming.

I started waiting for you. I arrived at exact time you were told me to come to the place where we should meet. I am excited to see you… your eyes, your face, everything. I felt nervous a bit for what reason I don’t know.  Until you came along, you never change. Your beautiful hair, your twinkling eyes, your pointed  nose and of course you yourself, still the same person I used to admire before ,is still having the same face that I am deeply wanted for. You said, “hello”… and the conversation started the way how I wanted and the rest were history. 

For whatever happened that day, I knew it will always be a part of our life time’s momentous event. I don’t know when it will be happening again, but those memories will always be as fresh as the newly blossoming flowers in the middle of the rainforest where everything keeps fresh and wonderful.

A Day with You

I woke up this morning longing for someone... Longing for somebody...I don't know who that person I am missing is. I really should not miss anybody for I am besides the precious people in my heart, my family.

Until, I saw myself started to take a bath, change my clothes and went straight outside the door and went away for wherever I will go, I really don’t know. I just kept on walking and riding in a trike (tricycle), going to the city, ride in a bus and there I am inside a church. The place where I usually go every 23^rd of the month…. It’s Padre Pio’s day for me.

Every 23^rd day of the month, I usually go to San Pedro, Sto. Tomas Batangas,  to visit Padre Pio’s Shrine. I just read my novena for him; say a little prayer and then go back home.

Now, I will go home comfortably for whatever the reason is, I know I am happy as of the moment. I felt peace of mind at the very moment. 

Contentedly I will go back home seeing the jewels in my life again, happily.

Hihintayin Kita

Sa sandali mong paglisan,

Malulungkot ako,

Mananahimik ako,

Tiyak mamimiss kita.

Subalit alam ko,

Maganda ang gagawin mo,

Bahagi ito ng kawanggawa mo,

Dahil dun masaya ako.

Alam ko naman,

Babalik ka rin agad,

Sa iyong pagbabalik, 

Tiyak marame kang kwento.

Hihintayin kita.

Valentine's Day's Medicine

I woke up late this morning. I really wanted to wake up earlier if possible but I am not feeling well due to runny nose, cough and cold. In as much as I wanted to leave my bed early, I can’t.

It was almost 8:00 am when I reached my work place. All my colleagues are out for funny picture taking. Timing, I just entered the  gate and saw them, though I am not feeling well, I joined them and got along with them. I received chocolates, roses and hearts. Picture, picture.picture….Picture perfect! It as if I am not feeling well.

Until my superior called me, “Sir,  Madam is calling you in the office”, somebody told me, and I say ok, I’ll follow then. While she is talking to me, I keep on sneezing and my cough is very obvious, she said, “Uminom ka nga ng gamot.” And she gave me medicine. Although that medicine is not intended for cough and cold, as I knew, my feelings got even better. Thank you madam for that medicine.

I have received chocolates, roses and hearts, but the most precious gift I had today was that medicine, it made my feelings became fine.

   Another thing is that, my colleagues decided to put different booth for today’s event such as Karaoke booth, dedication booth where in you are going to buy a heart made of paper and you will write your message in it and post it on the wall, and others.

This dedication booth struck me because the DJ for that day, who is my colleague as well, told me that Sir you came late. Don’t you know that most dedications read and posted on the wall mostly for you!, she exclaimed. The text goes like this, “Happy Valentine’s Day Sir Vince! “It adds joy to me today though I have no date because my special someone left me sometimes ago and I am still looking for someone who will replace her.

To all of you, “Happy Valentine’s Day!”

Muli

Sa aking paggising

Isang magandang umaga

Aking nadama

Sabik sa muling paglaya.

Kadakilaan ng paligid

Kasiyahan sa aking damdamin

Masilayan kang muli

Maramdaman kang muli.

Pusong Sabik

Tilaok ng tandang, akin na namang naringan

Mula sa higaan, naala-alang kapisan

Magdamagang pag-uulayawan, puno ng pagmamahalan

Pumalit kalungkutan, sa gabing kinasabikan

Bawat pitik ng orasan, bawat halik sa pusong sabik

Nagpupumiglas na damdamin

Nagbabalik nating ala-ala

Kalungkutan, walang kapara.

Kakilala

Salamat sa isang bagong karanasan, bagong pakikibaka, at bagong kaibigan. 

Maaga akong nagmulat ng aking mata para sa isang importanteng lakad. Ni hindi ko napansin na mainit, dahil ngayon ko lamang tutunghan ang lugar na ito, pero umalis akong baon lamang ang  instruksyon ng mga taong nagbigay sa akin ng direksyon kung saan at paano ko mararating ang lugar na aking tutunghan, mapa mula sa google earth at text messages mula mismo sa taong nagtatrabaho sa bayan kung saan ako patutungo.

Sakay ng bus, baba sa lugar kung saan ako dapat bumaba, sakay ulit at lakad, iyan ang aking ginawa. Lakad sa underpass, lilitaw sa kabilang kanto lakad, sige lang ng lakad hanggang sa marating ko ang matayog na  gusaling iyon, ang lugar na aking tutunghin. Sa madaling salita, nakarating ako nang mas maaga sa oras na inaasahan....

"Good morning Mam, I am Mr. Panganiban," wika ko. "Ok Sir, please have a seat..." ani ng aking kausap, at nagpatuloy ang aking layon sa mga oras na iyon. Subalit isang kapwa ko naron, isang lalaki ang nakapukaw ng aking pansin. Habang siya'y nagsusulat, pagod at tila kinakabahan at malalim ang iniisip. Natapos na ako sa aking pagsusulat siya'y tila walang kapahingahan sa mga oras na tapos na ang kanyang ginagawa. 

Natapos na kami sa aming dapat gawin sa loob ng opisinang iyon. Ako na ang nagsimulang makipagkilala upang maging bagong kaibigan niya. Mula siya sa Davao at naglakbay ng malayo upang hanapin ang isang bagong tadhana. Dahil sa aking pakikipanayam sa kanya sa mga oras na iyon naunawaan ko kung ano ang dahilan ng kanyang ginagawi sa mga oras na iyon. Hanggang sa sabay na kaming lumabas ng opisinang iyon at nagkwentuhan at sabay na muling sumakay sa sasakyan, sapagkat iisa ang lugar na aming babalikan. 

Dahil nangangailangan siya ng trabaho, tinungo namin ang isang kakilala upang i-refer ko siya sapagkat alam ko maari siya roon mag-aplay, matanggap man o hindi, atleast nasamahan ko siya. 

Laking pasasalamat niya sapagkat kahit paano nakasilay siya ng isang bagong pag-asa. 

Ako, sa aming paghihiwalay ng landas sa mga oras na iyon, nagpatuloy sa pakikibaka sa panibagong biyahe ng buhay, sumakay na muli pauwi sa tinubuang lupa upang balikan ang naiwang nakaraang pilit tinatalikdan. 

Habang tahimik ako sa aking upuan, tumunog ang aking cellphone, may nagtext, at ito ang nakasulat, "Vince, salamat ng marame huh.," mula sa aking bagong kakilala. Maiksi subalit malamang mensahe at nagpatuloy na ako sa aking pagmumuni-muni hanggang sa marating na muli ang aming tahanan bago magtakip-silim.

In Humility,Happiness and Contentment

Life is too short, that’s why people around us usually want to live their life to the fullest, both young and old, they want everything happens in just a click of a second, and that’s it.

But, do we consider God in our daily living?

Every aspect of our lives, we resulted to find happiness, enjoyment,  contentment, and  success in every field we wanted, no matter how it is, because we want it, by hook or by crook, we will find ways just to have it. Every time we wake up, we pray that whatever happens today, it must be according to our will, it must always be nice and makes us happy. But, there are few suggestions on how can we find happiness, in our very little way.

Happiness could be found in a very simple manner, we just need to be contented, be humble and be simple as I have stated.

Being contented on whatever you have right now is accepting the fact that no matter how small or big you have we should be thankful to God for He gave us enough to be used and spend our life together with our loved one such as families and friends. On the aspect of humility, according to Father Nicolas Schwizer “it   contains two life sentiments which are apparently in opposition: smallness and greatness. Whoever only experiences his own smallness will in the long run fall into an inferiority complex. On the contrary, whoever only experiences his owns greatness will become proud and presumptuous. In Mary, the human being par excellence, there is the perfect equilibrium: within herself she feels small, but at the same time, she feels loved and exalted by God.” So, we should be humble and not proud. Be simple, simplicity is next to being humble. We should be simple, in every field, and everything will fall in due time, you will be contented. You won’t clamor for the things that you don’t have, instead, you just be thankful later, because though you don’t have much at least, you have even a little.

In short, I should be telling it into myself. Even if I don’t have much, I should be thankful that I am still alive and God loves me for even though, I am not contented still He let me feels that I am not forsaken.