Thursday, January 31, 2013

Journey

Early this evening a friend of mine texted this...

"One day as I scrutinized every detail of my life, I found you being part of it. You made me stronger  though I was in the midst of agony. You even cheered me up when I was blue; and most of all you persuaded me to never quit nor surrender. Thank you for letting me know that life is really beautiful, keep safe."

Tol, you made your choice, I do hope you will be happy.

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Forgive and Forget




Maybe I was just becoming innocent, in a way that I can’t read the way how people will think afterwards.

Sad to note that, you express your feelings and emotions to some people honestly, be opened in them, tell everything in them and yet, afterwards, rejection and perpetration will happen because crab mentality really exists in a world where battle between who will be the center of attraction and who’s left behind really matters a lot.

As I am doing this, I am asking myself, what mistakes had I committed?


In the first place, no man is an island, and so I believe in it, therefore, I get along well with others, I socialize and as much as I can I want to gain friends, but what if these friends you are expecting to be the one whom you can lean on are the reasons why your life in a daily routine becomes miserable, how I wish you were never be a part of my life? In it, I was just become too close for comfort in them.

But, as I reflect on the situation I am having right now, somebody quoted this, “Sa isang taong masama man, sa loob nito’y may kabutihan pa rin”  and “Ang buhay ay weather weather lang” by Kuya Kim, I firmly believe that for every problems arise, solution is just around the corner, and for every fall, we should always stand and so the next time that we experienced the same, we knew how to face the situation, for the sun continuously rising to show new beginning and setting to show rest for the next battle in the next days to come, for life is a continues battle.

Every person we interact with in our daily lives, still there are reasons why we met them, why we interacted with them and why they touched our lives, no matter how it is, bad or good, still lessons will be learned.

Battle




Many times, I woke up early in the morning battling for the right times, battling for the right reasons on what I have done wrong why I am experiencing these things right now. Though, we are still living in a world where the norms need to be followed, thus the pattern of the same old stories, judging and mocking are some of the reasons why we need to act the way how people want us to be.

 But, how can we express our own feelings where in, we done no wrong but to help, but in these crises I am having the scene of morality is somewhat different on what others are saying. If only I could turned back time, I think I will still do the same, but the battle between the manners of doing this is the only things that must matter for the next time it will happen again.

Feeling of being loved and beloved are the most enticing experienced I had, but the feelings of being hurt, never had I prepared for this part. Sometimes, we can’t deny the fact that when we felt happiness inside, sooner or later, loneliness comes on our way to balance the reality of life, we can never be happy for the rest of our life.

Paggalang




Salamat, salamat
Anuman ang nangyari
Tanggap mo parati
Paggalang, nanatili

Kung sa aki’y madala
Puso ay nagsalita
Nagawang pagtalima
Unawa isinakatuparan

Mali mang makita
Sa iba ang nagawa
Ipagpaumanhin
Aral natutuhan na

Kung sa pagkakataong ito
Karangala’y nadaganan
Huwag mag-alala
Kamalian sa tama,iisa na nga

Isiping ginawa man
Tayo’y may pagkakasala talaga
Ang mas mahalaga
Nandun ka para sa ating dalawa


Mali man o tama
Dahilan pakinggan
Masama man sa una
Paghusga, huwag kara-karaka

Katotohanan ng Buhay




Kung iisipin mo
Sarili na buksan
Masakit  palang talaga
Totoong  tao ka,minasama pa

Masamain man ng iba
Huwag intidihin,balewalain
Hinanakit ng sarili
Nagsasarili, nagkukubli

Kadalasan ang tao
Pagkatiwalaan nang lubos
Gagawin ang lahat
Maitaas sariling nasa

Mata’y ko mang isipin
Sakit minsa’y dapat tanggapin
Anumang kinahihinatnan
Aral, nandun  at maiiwan

Dakila Ka




Kadakilaan mo’y
Akin nang nabata
Sa kahusayan
Kapara’y wala

Isang umagang
Paggising may kaba
Isiping nandyan ka
Maghapon, kumpleto talaga

Nakilala ka
Hindi sinasadya
Puso’y  mapiit talaga
Salamat, nariyan ka pa

Bigo man




Ang puso ko
Hinahayaan kong umibig
Mabigo man ito
Tiyak may isang mag-aankin nito

Never will you be forgotten


Later this afternoon, I felt sad for the text message I have received from somebody. He was one among my neophytes friend, and yet he became open in his life in me, and so why not must I do the same.

For a short period of time, he had told his stories regarding his life now and then. Though, I don’t know if all had been stated, what I knew was just a few.

He ventured for loved a lot, until one day he found himself in the arms of a girl whom he thought will be his partner for life, waking up one day that this girl got pregnant and he is the father. They lived in together, both in an early age. Until, their eldest died because the baby delivered just seven months old, then they tried for another and this boy is now ten year old, but sad to say, they separated. The girl got married to another man and he was left alone, ventured for many girlfriends, but nobody stayed beside him for he is already a single dad, though the child is in the custody of the girl’s parent, he just gave financial support whenever possible for him.

To show honesty, he always told to each girl he courted that he is a single father already, and every time they heard about it, they turned him down, but he never regrets any, for at least he became honest in them.

We accidentally met on facebook and became friend. He struggles in life so hard, he never had a regular job for he is an undergraduate nursing student then. To support his child, he became a pan de sal vendor somewhere in Laguna and took percentage for every pan de sal he sold, and usually had a commissioned of Php30.00 up to Php50.00 a day, he is doing it, until today…, I received a text message from him….

We were also textmate because everytime he finished selling pan de sal early in the morning, whenever he has load, he ask me how am I and what am I doing to start the conversation. I always say, I am busy in the school, with the children. Busy for extra work assigned such as going to the district office to submit report, to the division office for a meeting and the likes.

Later this afternoon, he texted me, “I am here in Carmona, Cavite.” I said, “Why did you leave Laguna?” He replied, “I will tell you soon take care.” I knew something bothering him, and so I kept on telling him to tell me what about it because he told me he don’t know if what he will be doing is right. So in short, he is hesitant to tell me the reason. I texted him that no matter what he will be doing, whether it is right or wrong, the battle between them is not a matter anymore, whether it is right or wrong, as long as you have the right reason, then it is right. Then he stated this….


“Somebody in Makati wanted to be with me. This person send me money and so I went back home to get my clothes and be with this somebody. I will be doing this not for me but for the people who needs my help….”

I was shocked but at the same time hurt on what he will be doing but he gave his reason and so I respected him. To show respect I just parted these words in him through text message….

  “I got shocked and struck by the statement u had. But you have your reason, I understand you. I do hope that you will be happy and hope you find yourself one day, leaning on someone else’s shoulder whom hoping to be the part for the rest of your life. “

I also texted these….

“You are the master of your ship, wherever you go, it is your choice and I do hope you find your happiness.”

Though, it’s sad to note that because of scarcity in life he needs to be with somebody just for the sake of earning enough money for somebody who needs his financial support, it is his choice, and I hope he will be happy wherever he is right now.

“Tol’” as what we used to call each other, “my prayers are with you. God bless.”

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Nabasa ko sa isang leaflet
Huwag kang mamuhay sa takot
Huwag kang mamuhay sa kaba
Hangga't nandyan SIYA

Dapat nga
Oo nga,tama siya
Anuman ang mangyari
Sa likod nandun SIYA

Salamat
Araw araw nandyan Ka
Di mo kami pinababayaan
Di mo ako kinakaligtaan.

Monday, January 28, 2013

Pagsinta


Sa huling kasama kita
Mula noon hinahanap ka
Mula noon ninanais
Muli, tayo ay maging masaya

Saturday, January 26, 2013

Pag-ibig


Kaysayang Umaga

Tingnan ang umaga
Masaya ang makikita
Kung sa pagsinta labis
Ikaw ang matataranta

Hindi man akalain
Pag-ibig wariin
Sana manatili
Ikaw na lang sana

Ikaw ang umaga
Hanap sa twina
Harinawa makasama
Ikaw ang ninanasa

Salamat sa pusong
Ikaw ang napatira
Manahan ka magpakailanman
Nanaisin kahit kailan

Umaga

Saan ang umaga
Kung tulog kulang pa
Kung kaya lng sana
Maghapon tulog pa.

Friday, January 25, 2013

Scouting


Masarap isiping balikan ang kabataan,
Araw na kay saya
Gabing di maipinta
Makatulog dili ka

Sa Scouting natin
Masayang alalahanin
Walang tubig,liligo
Wala pang pagkain, gutom na

Di makitang neckerchief
Asan ka
Carabao slide na nagtatapo pa
Haist pumito na,late kang scout ka

Lumipad ka
Bawal ang tumakbo
Bilisan mo
Late na tayo.

Mahirap na masaya
Pangkalahatan,matututo ka
Masayang karanasan
Bagong kaibigan,pakikibaka.

Monday, January 21, 2013

Pigilan Man




Isipin mong minahal kita
Nagmahal ka man tama na
Isipin mo, isipin mo
Nagmamahalan tayo

Bakas sa letra mo
Wagas nakikita ko
Nakilala natin tayo
Pigilan man, di mababago






Vivencio Panganiban

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Now and then





        I commend you for the best things you have done unto me. Never will I imagined that your worth was worthy until you were gone. The fire of encouragement, the strength of challenges, you were the only reason why I exceeded before…, why I succeeded then…, why I excel until then. Now that you were gone, now that you were faded, commendation was given unto you; you were the best thing that happened unto me.






Vivencio Panganiban

Hanggang




Hanggang kailan
Hanggang saan
Hanggang hanggan
Ay magka-hanggan

Hanggang hanggan
Ikaw ang tangan
Hanggang ikaw hanggang ikaw
Hanggang ditong hanggan

Hanggang hangganan
Hanggana’y makamtam
Hanggang ikaw sa akin
Hanggang tayo’y magkapiling






Vivencio Panganiban

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Sana




Sa gitna ng pag-aasam
Laging nag-iisa
Masaya na ang kausap ka
Masaya na ang nandun ka

Huwag sanang mawaglit
Oras na nahirati
Kung sana’y kaya ko
Kipkipin ka sa puso ko






Vivencio Panganiban

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It was just begun…



It was just begun…

We begun reading the text we had, we begun calling the numbers, we begun, never gone.
The audios, the music of laughter and the shredding of tears were the silent witnesses on how we did those memorable acts that had happened. It begun …never gone, hoping that those memories would come back, never know when, but the aspiration and the recognition of time won’t stop for us. It will happen that when the two persons who felt the same for each other will succeed no matter what happen, it is between the two of us, if we will let each other be freed... if we will let each other be…if….






Vivencio Panganiban

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Naroon Ka




Ni hindi nasagi
Sa isipang munti
Ang makita kita
Ang isiping mahal kita

Huwag sanang kalimutan
Akong isa lamang nilalang
Kasalanan mang ibigan ka
Ipagpatawad nadama ko na






Vivencio Panganiban

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Dito Tayo





Sa gitna ng unos
Sa dulo ng agos
Mapaparoon ako
Sa iyo tutungo

Ayaw mo mang tanggapin
Pagmamahal na pag-angkin
Aasahan na rin nito
Kaparehong pagtanto

Sana paggising mo
Masayang umaga pa rin
Isipin mong ako
Isipin mong tayo

Ikubli man ng ulap
Takluban man ang araw
Nandun ang liwanag
Magniningning, magmumulat

Itago mo ako
Sa pakpak ng pagmamahal
Sa kasalanang dala nito
Naging maligaya tayo

Sambit




Salita ang sambit
Kilos ang waring saksi
Hanggang kailan ako
Hanggang saan ako

Pag-indayog ng sayaw
Paglundag ng puso
Naroon ikaw
Napapasaya ako

Tandaang mabuti
Narito ang puso ko
Maghihintay sa ‘yo
Nandito lang ako

Kaligayahan kong ito
Walang mapagsidlan
Ang makita kita
Kaligayang walang kapara

Hanggang




 Hanggang…
Sa lumipas na sandali
Kay hirap limutin ang mga sandali
Kaakibat na twina, sandaling nalipi
Mga sariling saksi, piping walang hapis

Ni ang buhay na sinimulan
Walang kahantungang daan
Ikaw ang nagasabi
Ikaw, ikaw, ikaw

Sa hikbi ng gabi
Sa saliw ng awit
Nitong yakap at ngiti
Naliligalig ka, umaawit mandin

Sa nakaraang sandali
Nalimot ang dati
Sa nakaraang saglit
Sumaya’t nahirati

Maghihintay roon
Sa dulo ng mundo
Walang hanggang patid
Maghihintay,maghihintay

                                                                                                                                  Vivencio Panganiban


Sunday, January 20, 2013

Nananabik


Inakala ko makakayanan ko na hindi itaas ang lebel ng nararamdaman kong ito
subalit ang pagdadala sa ating kapwa palasyo
ang siyang nais kong hiling sa isa't isa
Samahan mo ako sa aking pag-iisa

Sa iyong paglisan ako ay nawalan
sa araw araw na ginawa na lang
ikaw ang nais makamtam
ang yakap mo nais nais ko

kailan uulitin
tamis ng ating pagsasarili
ninanais ka
hinihintay ka

                                                                                                                                   Vivencio Panganiban

Saturday, January 19, 2013

Ikaw na ang Bahala


Ikaw na ang Bahala

Saan ka pupulutin?

Hindi ko kailanman naisip na ang mga bagay na aking nararanasan ay kulang pa upang matutunan ko ang halaga ng buhay.

saan mo pupulutin ang totoong taong magpaparaya upang unawain, mahalin at manatiling tapat sa iyo hanggang sa huli?

Tanging ang pagbabago ang nananatiling bahagi ng isang pangmatagalang kaagapay sa buhay. Hindi mo ninais na maranasang masaktan,subalit ang sakit na iyong mararamdaman ang siyang magiging dahilan ng iyong katatagan.Sa isang blog ng isang malapit na kaibigan, ninanais niyang mahilom ang sugat na nalikha ng isang mapait na kahapon at patawarin ng ganun na lamang ang nagkasala sa kanya. Hindi na rin niya ninanais na mabago pa ito, tanging paghilom na lamang sa sugat na nilikha ng kahapon. Nawa matularan ko ang kanyang naisin. maalis sa isip ang munting paghihiganti.

Sana,sana....