Seryoso

Before...

You ask me "when will I get married? "
I just uttered," pag may time. "
I knew you got mad because I didn't answer you seriously.
The whole truth...

I can't say directly that time,
" Mahal kita, di mo ba nadarama? "

Bulong ng Puso

Flashback....
Nakaupo tayo sa isang kawayang upuan, sa harap ng isang ilog na tahimik na nakikinig sa usapan naten, hanggang sa bigla mong naitanong,
"kailan mo plano mag settledown?  "
Hindi kita nasagot nang diretso, kaya't na sambit ko " kapag may time. "

Subalit di ko tuwid masambit ang aking nais sambitin sa harap mo na, " mahal kita, di mo ba nadarama?"

Kung pwede ko lang sabihin nang mga panahong iyon na, "  mahal kita, pwede bang tayo na lang?"
Subalit walang lakas ang puso ko, walang tapang ang dila kong sambitin ang mga katagang iyon dahil ayokong mawala ka sa akin.

Ayokong magbago ka sa akin. Ayokong mawala ang pagkakaibigan natin. Dahil sabi mo hindi mo gusto ang kaibigang magmahal sa iyo nang higit sa ipinapakita mo.

Natakot ako. Mas pinili kong maging alipin ng sarili kong pagnanais. Ninais kong itago at ilihim sa iyo ang damdaming nais kong pakawalan sa iyo.

Matama lang akong nakatingin sa kalawakan. Matama kong nililingon ang mga bituin sa langit. Nanalanging sana, mayakap kang muli. Sana ikaw at ako maging laban man sa mundo.

You are the best for this Season

I don't know why I longed for you this moment. I missed you so much. I wanted to be with you, hug you and feel your arms around mine. I wanted to kiss your tender lips. I wanted to see you, it will make each moment of mine a great moment. I don't know if you feel the same, but as for me, I have made my decision, I wanted to be with you. The problem is I don't know where you are right now. I don't know if I could hold you. I don't know if you feel the way I feel this feelings. I learned to love you, just the way you showed me how much you wanted me. You showed me how important I am to you. You never told me how much you value me but I feel it. Every time, you are far from me I felt so bad, but I have this feelings that tomorrow is another. There are still tomorrows for the two of us. You will complete this year if we see each other, but your statement don't assure that we could have each other. I am sad right now. I am incomplete right now. I am praying that miracle will happen so the two of us will see and let me say how much you are being loved by me.

Incomplete

You are the only person who will complete me this year. How I wish things happened in an instant that even for a day we would spend each other not minding the world outside, people outside. You just keep me thinking of what you are doing, where you are right now and what you are doing. I am lonesome. Its you who can make this mending heart complete. Right now, I am incomplete .(12-25-14)

I can still Recall

Sometimes ago....

Long time its been so long... i just rememered the moment.

Let's meet, you said.  You want to see me even just for a moment, or even just for a day or an overnight one. You want me to reply immediately to your pending request. No matter how busy our schedules, either yours or mine, we MAKE it to a point we will spend time together even just for a moment. That was before.

You know,  i missed those moments . Those simple time we spend each others riding in a trike, a jeepney, a bus, or even in my motorcycle, we just enjoyed and called that day a date. A simple embrace, simple Kiss, simple toss, simple treat for each other but you still manage to say  "thanks for the good time."

I still have those thoughts that we could still have enough time for each others. It was not fantasies to fulfill but a reality to determine. I can still recall.... I won't forget those, it will still remain in me forever.

Incomplete without you

I don't know why I longed for you this moment. I missed you so much. I wanted to be with you, hug you and feel your arms around mine. I wanted to kiss your tender lips. I wanted to see you, it will make each moment for me a great moment. I don't know if you feel the same, but as for me, I have made my decision, I wanted to be with you. The problem is I don't know where you are right now. I don't know if I could hold you. I don't know if you feel the way I feel this feelings. I learned to love you, just the way you showed me how much you wanted me. You showed me how important I am to you. You never told me how much you value me but I feel it. Every time, you are far from me I felt so bad, but I have this feeling that tomorrow is another. There are still tomorrows for the two of us. You will complete this year if we see each other, but your statement don't assure that we could have each other. I am sad right now. I am incomplete right now. I am praying that miracle will happen so the two of us will see and let me say how much you are being loved by me.

Isang Liham

Kaibigan,

Ang makilala ka ay isang magandang biyayabiyayang aking natamo. Hindi mo alam gaano ako nagpapasalamat sa iyo. Ikaw ang nagbigay ng liwanag sa aking daan. Ikaw ang pumupuno sa aking isipang nagugulumihanan.Ikaw ang aking takbuhan kung ako nalulungkot may problema....

Ngayon, tila ramdam ko ang iyong kalungkuta. Alam mo kung ppaano ako abutin. Alam mo namang lagi lamang akong naghihintay sa iyo. Ngayong ramdam ko ang kalungkutan mo, sabi nga ni Tito Boy, "kaibigan, halika usap tayo .

Kaibigan, sana may magawa ako upang mapaligaya ka. Mahal kita alam mo yan. Mahalna mahal. Ganun ka kahalaga sa akin. Ako ay naghihintay laamang sa iyo.

Tanging dalangin ko sa Poong MMay kapal ang iyong kalungkutan ay maibsan at mapalitan ng kaligayahan. Panalangin ko nawa ang iyong mga pangarap at naiisip ay maging matagumpay at tulungan ka nawa ng mapagpalang Lumikha.

Nagmamahal,

Iyong kaibigan

Oras

Oras. 

Ito ang hindi naten mabibili ng salapi, tanging pagkakataon at hindi natin ito kayang ibalik. Hindi natin ito makakayang tapatan ng anumang bagay,isang regalong tiyak walang anumang mamahaling laruan o ano pa man ang maaring makasapat. 

Be strong

Accept all the challenges so that you can feel the exhilaration of victory
-General George Patton Jr.

note:how i wish i could....

Happy

Somebody's post, just want to add here: I think it's proper if the ending of whatever we have right now will be a mutual decision so that not one of us left while one was left behind. It's like standing in the middle of the bridge, agreeing that we both take the opposite path promising not to look back. We should end it not because we're giving up but that's the right thing to do. On my part I'm letting you go because i do love you. You deserve to be loved fully, to be introduced to friends and family, to spend the whole time with. I can not give u all these. Moreover, i don't want to be the instrument of ur guilt bacause i know it makes you feel bad and it kills me to see you in pain. Maybe we were given a second chance so that we'll not live in what if. I was able to share to you a part of me that very few know. I was able to take care of you and that made me happy.

Pakisabi raw sa kanya...

It's not from me.

Please tell it to her.This time it's really goodbye. I can't offer you friendship or can't have small talks with you because we have proven that we're having difficulty remaining "friends". Maybe, someday but definitely not now. Thank you for the laughter and sadness we've shared. Thank you for giving my life back. Thank you for showing me I'm still capable of loving. I wish you happiness because u have given me so much when I had none. I'm okay. U don't have to worry about me. I know this day will come. It might not be as easy as I imagined it would be but it's bearable. I hope I'll forget you easily and I promise that u would be the last to be given a chance. I believe I learned a lot from this. Let me tell you this one last time "I love you".