Love Moves in His Own Way

You just want to consider me as one among your friends, you just wanted to be my friend...but I refused to be one. Yes, I have lots of friends and I don't want to include you among them because, you are such a special person for me. 

I left the school which gave fame to me. This school was the school where I fulfilled my ambition of becoming a teacher, of becoming a successful teacher, trainer and coach. Yes, in this school, I won so many competitions serving as a coach or a trainer. In this school, I became one among the most outstanding school paper advisers in the region, as finalists. This school gave me so much, that another blessings is finding you, finding the one whom I want to spend my lifetime with. 

I started seeing you just an ordinary girl, having a long straight, black hair. Having a long and curly eyebrows and a fair complexion. You were once an ordinary gul for me then. Until, one morning, I was awaken by a sudden impulse, a sudden heart beats that’s so fast. I asked myself why?

Then, I found myself searching for your number, craving to text you every moment, and wanting to be with you each time. From that time onwards, I was amazed by not only your beauty outside but most importantly, your beauty from within. Yes for a times, I got upset by your immaturity but it was manageable I do understand those because we almost had a decade of age gap but you managed to love me the way I did. Its been a year now since you accepted me as your special someone despite of detractions coming from the people who are against me.

Against me because of my sexual preference. Yes, they don't like me because of how I act and how they knew me, but against all odds, you love me and gave your trust wholeheartedly. Thank you for loving me. I can't promise you a bed of roses, but I will love you the way I want it to happen and I will trust you all my life. Love you until eternity.  

Since Then

It’s been quite sometimes, since we parted ways.

It’s been so long but we survived. Yes, we almost had each other occasionally, just to find quality time for each other.

 
Another season, another event without having each other. Again, its December time. I still remembered during this month, we were both looking forward of seeing each other. We planned nothing, but time just gave us a wonderful opportunity to spend a happy moment. You and I just running after the time just to be with each other.

Time passed by so fast, but the moment we were waiting for was just part of yesterday. A moment to be remembered and season to be thankful for because we can say that, sometimes that year, the year that was, we had a great moment.

Life's Challenges

About the life's experiences? I must say, I taste the sweetness and bitterness of it.

We were just an ordinary children raised by an ordinary family. Living not in a comfortable life. We were just house in a nipa hut then, with a kerosene lamp as a source of light when the night comes and a door made of bamboo, but we were happy since then. We don't have sumptuous food during meal time. Rice plus a combination of a brewed coffee and dried fish, those made us happy.

We are four and my father is a farmer while my mother stays at home who nurses us and do the household chores. All of my siblings graduated high school while my brother and I graduated as a licensed professional teacher.

Why I experienced sweetness and bitterness of life? We, my siblings and I experienced going to school with only minimal amount of money as our allowances then. We just walked going in and out of the school from home, almost 5 km approximately. During rainy season, we usually got soaked and sometimes our books and notebooks were torn due to heavy rains. But, during recognition day, we were one among the best pupils. Until secondary school, the same situation. We used to walk going in and out of the school from home for more than 5 km approximately. During those days, I wasn't able to join field trips and other tours organized in our school because we don't have enough money to afford the fees. I only have two pairs of uniforms to be worn from Mondays thru Fridays.

In order for us to join the field demonstrations, my parents need to borrow some amount of money to my uncle. It will be paid after harvest time.

 

I can't afford seeing myself working in a rice field, plowing tilted lands. I can't do those jobs since my body built is weak then. Upon finishing high school, I worked hard as a student assistant in a school where I enrolled college up to the time I graduated. I worked hard through the help of my colleagues and professors. Until I got hired as a teacher. After seven years of teaching in the public school, I got promoted as a school head. As of today, I am reaping the fruit of my hardwork. Thank you Lord.

Kasalanan, Kapatawaran, Kapanatagan

Kasalanan, kapatawaran at kapanatagan....

Nilalang ang tao upang syang mangalaga sa nilikha ng nasa kaitaasan, subalit natukso tayo kung kaya't ang paraisong ipinangako ng Diyos ay nagkaroon ng paghihirap, kaguluhan. Subalit ipinangako Niya na bukas ang tahanan Niya sa sinumang nais humingi ng kapatawaran upang magkaroon ng kapanatagan. 

Tila kaakibat na ng tao ang magkasala, madarang sa tawag ng mundo. Tila hindi lamang iisang beses tayo nakakagawa ng kasalanan. Ang makiapid sa di asawa, ang makipagtalik sa di pa asawa gayundin ang makipagrelasyon sa kapwa lalake o babae. Mga gawaing laganap sa daigdig. May mga bansang tuwid na itinutiring ang makapag asawa ng kapwa sekso, ang makipaghiwalay sa pamamagitan ng deborsyo. Ayon sa isang pag-aaral na aking nabasa, dalawa na lamang sa buong mundo ang hindi tinatanggap ang deborsyo bilang legal na paghihiwalay upang makapangasawa muli, ang Pilipinas at Vatican. Mga bansang katoliko ang pangunahing relihiyon. 

Ang makipag relasyon sa kapwa lalake o babae ay isang itinuturing na kasalanan, subalit bakit marami ang nadadarang sa ganitong gawain. Wika nga sa isang pilosopong kasabihan, talagang malimit "masarap gawin ang bawal." Nandun ang thrill, nandun ang saya, nandun ang ligaya subalit, nagsasaya ang kaluluwa sa makamundong gawain. Lumuluha man ang langit sa ganitong gawain subalit tila kakambal ng pag unlad ang pagkasira kung minsan ng moralidad ng sangkatauhan. 

Laganap ang cybersex, yung sa tulong ng internet maari nang makipagtalik ang sinuman gamit ang kamera ng kompyuter at internet. Laganap na rin ang iba't ibang pamamaraan ng pagbibili ng laman. Nakalulungkot isipin subalit ang mga ito rin ang sanhi ng di nalulunasang sakit sa buong mundo na mula na rin sa unggoy, ayon sa isang pagsusuri, ang AIDS o acquired imuno deficiency syndrome.Sa ilang lugar sa Pilipinas dahil sa talamak na bentahan ng laman, madali na rin itong nakukuha sa pamamagitan ng di ligtas na pakikipagtalik. 

Nasaan ang wastong edukasyon na mula pre elem hanggang kolehiyo ay itinuturo ng isang guro. Subalit nakalulungkot mang isipin, may mga pagkakataong mismong guro rin ay sangkot sa di magandang gawain katulad ng sexual harassment. Ang kakaunting kaligayahang nakukuha sa pang aabuso ng kabataan ay nagiging kapalit ang panghabambuhay na pagdurusa. Ang mga sinasabi nating mga taong simbahan ay ganundin. Hindi lahat subalit mga kasong iilan na di pa lubusang nabibigyang kalutasan malamang ay dahil sa kakulangan ng ebidensya o sa katakutan na rin. Subalit, pawang nagdadala ang bawat isa sa buklod ng kasalanan. 

Lahat ng tao ay nagkakasala. Mismong ilang mga sinsamba nating mga santo ay hindi naman talaga santo agad ang kanilang pamumuhay. May magnanakaw, may nabulid sa apoy ng kasalanan subalit binigyan ng Panginoon ng pangalawang pagkakataon upang maipangalat ang totoong salita ng Diyos. Pinatutunayan lamang ng lahat ng ito na anuman ang ating nagawang kasalanan, may kapatawaran sa taong taimtim ang pagdurusa sa nagawang kamalian sa buhay.

Wika nga, "hindi pa huli ang lahat." Nasa huli talaga ang pagsisi, kailangan lamang talaga na magsisi o pagsisihan ang nagawang kasalanan at matuto sa nagawa. Hindi natutulog ang nasa itaas. Sabi nga 24/7 Siyang nakatungo sa atin . Naghihintay sa ating pagbabalik loob. Naghihintay sa alibughang anak. Sa paghingi ng kapatwaran nandun ang kapanatagan naghihintay ang buhay na walang hanggan.